I came across an old SILVER SURFER comic book, that was on sale for just a dollar. (That's a full 25 cents less than it originally sold for, in 1987.)
Last time I read this issue, I was 13 years old.
Looking back, it's easy to see why I would've been drawn to the Surfer. On page 36, he tells his former boss/father figure:
"I DARE, GALACTUS -- BECAUSE I, TOO HAVE AN INFLEXIBLE WILL -- AND IT IS COUPLED TO CONSICENCE!"adding:
"IT MATTER NOT WHAT OTHERS DO! THE SILVER SURFER MUST BE TRUE TO HIMSELF!"
Hokey and ham-handed, sure. But I'm betting that idea resonated with me, on some level. Operating with a strong sense of what's right and wrong.
Previous examinations of my past have turned-up unsettling connections and things that must've been obvious to others, but I was oblivious to. (This early video memoir unearthed my romanticization of lone gunmen fighting for justice.)
But the above quote may have had some good influence. I suspect most teenagers see an "inflexible will" as a good thing. But in my case, I applied that will to not drinking alcohol or using drugs. That's no small accomplishment for any teenager (or adult.) So I should thank Steve Englehard for helping me with my sobriety.